A Letter to my Son on Your Third Birthday

Caleb,

Today you turn three! We all love you! Our family would be incomplete without you. 💙💜💛

You came into this world in a hurry and officially made me part of the club of moms who have delivered with an epidural. We had only been in our home for two weeks, but your arrival made it feel like home.

You are a sweet boy and all you want for your special day is a bday cake with dinosaurs. 🦖 We will also celebrate with pizza at a park because it is 2020 and we are practicing social distancing.

You love singing songs like “Can’t Touch This” but we also hear you singing “Alleluya”. You are quite the entertainer. 🎤 I love hearing your sweet voice singing in the back seat while I drive.

I pray you will be a great leader some day because you like to tell people what to do, even the neighbors’ puppy🐕 and…..everyone else around you.

You love licking guacamole containers clean and you could eat beans with every meal….but that would be dangerous. 🤪

You like adventure and you are always right behind your big brothers. 🛴

You have special games with everyone- you snap and point to say “tranquilo Papá” 👉 and you try to give me kisses on the mouth 👄….you “kiss me en la boca” because in this house full of boys Mommy’s mouth is only for daddy so this is our game.

Josué is the brother you cuddle up with to read a book. 📖 With Josiah you can spend hours building forts and hiding from everyone. ⛺

We love you so much! Happy 3rd birthday to our Baby Shark, 🦈because in this family you will always be the baby. Besos! Te Amo! 😘

How Will the World be Different for my Sons After this Pandemic?

I have asked myself this question so many times in the past weeks. How will the world be different after this pandemic? What will the world look like as my boys grow up? What will be the markers in their mind where they remember things shifting? How will this mark this generation like those that came before them?

With Memorial Day coming around the corner, I have also thought about some of the big events in history that stand out to so many, where our soldiers have led the way with their bravery. Where the nurses, firefighters and citizens have done their part to move forward each day.

For many people they remember their Fathers going away to fight in wars. They remember hard times where food was hard to come by and families were worried about being bombed.

I was watching a Peter Pan sequel the other day with my boys, thanks to Disney+, and Wendy was the mom whose husband went away to war and the children were being put on trains to go live in the countryside for safety during the war. Thankfully, Wendy’s children were taken off to Neverland for some adventures with Peter Pan instead of going on the train.

While I watched this movie, I was grateful that during this unprecedented time I am able to stay at home with my kids. The grocery stores have caught up on the demand for most necessary items. We can leave our house and go for a walk to breathe in fresh air. We are not running to bomb shelters in the middle of the night.

Yet, I know many of my friends have been on lock down in their cities. Many countries are still facing the peak of the virus affecting their citizens. Many people are living in fear, especially fear for the future.

Again, I ask myself, “How will this change the way we live? How will this change the way my kids grow up?”

I am 37 years old. When 9/11- the terrorist attacks on September 11, 2001 happened I was a freshman in college. I was just getting adjusted to life in the dorms at the University I was attending. I had grown up in a time where we believed the USA was untouchable. That morning we were made aware of the false security we had been living in. We realized how quickly things could change.

I will never forget watching the towers in New York City crashing to the ground as I stood in front of the TV screen. Classes were cancelled. Life was put on hold. The United States became united as people hung up flags and were proud of their citizenship.

Everywhere you turned you saw people coming together, grieving together, and serving eachother selflessly together.

That moment in history changed people. It changed how things were done. 9/11 reminded people of their vulnerability and how much we need eachother.

Here we are again. Facing a time in history that is affecting the whole world. It is changing the way people do things. It is causing us to face the fact that we are vulnerable and most importantly that we need eachother.

I am not saying that our situation today is the same as a World War, but I am saying that this time will change how we do things. This time will be something we all remember.

My oldest son is 11. This year he started Middle School. Will he remember the new found freedom of being one of the “big kids” at the school? Or will he remember Distance Learning and everyone around him wearing facemasks?

How will having Proms and Graduations cancelled effect the Seniors as they move forward and make decisions in life? Will they life differently because they are more aware of how quickly life can change?

I do not know what life will be like in the future or what the world will look like for my three sons as they grow up.

The only thing I do know is that I will be here for them as they experience new things. I will be here when they cry because they miss their friends-yes even my boys cry. And I will be here to reassure them that they aren’t alone and I am here for them.

I am their mom and I will do whatever I can to comfort them and help them feel secure and confident. I will protect them like a mama bear and I will kick them out of the nest like a mama bird. This is what we do as moms.